Grateful.
"How do you get through the first holiday since?" I got this text on Thanksgiving morning from a friend. I had to think about it. Two years and two months later, I'm still trying to figure out how to get through holidays. I think a part of my will always be trying to figure it out. So, I told her what I told myself that first year every time I had to do something or get through something I was dreading: "It's 24 hours. And not even a full 24 hours, since we sleep through part of that time. And I've been through worse 24 hours. Lots worse. Today you have people with you that will pick you up when you hit the floor. It's ok to hide in the bathroom. It's ok to not laugh and smile. It's ok to be upset. You don't have to be the strongest today. That's what the people you are with today are for. Let them be strong for you." I still tell myself that. Sometimes it helps. Sometimes it doesn't. What does hel...
